I have learned to love quiet times like today. Outside is cold and dreary, but inside is nice and cozy. I am wrapped in a fluffy fleece blanket, sipping on creamy hot chocolate--with extra chocolate. :)
It isn't often that I can just sit here, without an agenda and without being rushed. All is quiet and it is the perfect opportunity to reflect on all the awesomeness God has been doing in my life lately.
Constantly, I am reminded of the peace that He has placed in my heart. I am often asked if I am scared or nervous about the road that lies ahead. I can honestly answer with, "No, not at all." God has completely protected me from any fear or anxiety. He has been holding my heart in His hands and not allowed my faith to be shaken. But don't misunderstand, my heart has definitely been breaking. In fact, it is hard to recall a time when my heart was this shattered. It takes enormous strength to hold back tears when I tell people about the deaf kids I have met in Uganda--their desire for love, acceptance, and healing. Their need for hope in Jesus Christ.
At times I feel like I am on an emotional roller coaster. There are days when I am ready to face this challenge head-on, like a confident superhero sent into battle with a secret-weapon cape. Other days I see the magnitude of despair and wonder how I am so 'lucky' to be entrusted with such a massive mission. It isn't that I don't want to, because believe me, there is no place on earth I would rather be than with those babies, telling them stories about an amazing savior named Jesus. But there are times when I feel completely inadequate.
I'm just being transparent, y'all. God has given me a glimpse into my future. There will be mountains to scale, suffering to endure, and uncertainty to persevere through. God has shown me these daunting tasks, but He has also reminded me of His strength and promise to go before me. (Deut 31:8) I know that there will be tough days ahead, but I also know that I will experience a joy like I have never known. Deaf children will begin their walk with Jesus. Families will be restored. Faith, hope, and love will radiate the hearts of Busega Community.
Lately, I have been finding myself at a loss for words about where God has me. I have tried to find the right adjectives and emotions to describe what this feels like and I have come to the conclusion that there are no words to adequately explain the feeling we get when we know God it actively working in our lives and in the lives of the ones we love. It is a calming peace, a thrilling excitement, a longing anticipation, and a relentless trust all wrapped up--and you see--that still is not a satisfactory list. Regardless of my lack of words, I know that God is in control and is leading every step I take as I continue to discover His will, and His journey for me. He has placed a new love in my heart and a passion like I have never known.
I want nothing more than to see Christ living through those kids and their families.
It is going to happen.
God is going to radically change their hearts and rescue souls.
Please declare this with me.
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