What has God accomplished?
How have lives been eternally impacted?
Where has God made the biggest changes in my life?
What about the ‘little’ changes?
What changes still need to be made in me?
That last question is one that I can’t seem to shake this morning. God has done so much in my heart over the last year. There are countless times when I just stand in awe of Jesus and all that His name represents. Other times, my heart has been broken into millions of unidentifiable little pieces; shattered beyond repair.But then, it is as if God reaches inside my chest, grabs hold of all the pieces, and tenderly molds my heart together again.
The Bible reassures us that he makes everything new. There is no doubt that I have seen my share of ‘new’ this year…but today I feel like God is saying, ‘I’m not done yet.” There is still more that He wants to accomplish.
The only thing stopping him?Me.
As many of us know, choosing to walk with God leads us into the middle of a battlefield. Our adversary has an arsenal of weapons he uses in an attempt to weaken us and dissuade us from walking in righteousness with Christ.
Several months back, this battle became very real for me when someone I thought I could trust, joined forces with Satan and spoke awful accusations against me. I wish I could say that the slanderous lies went in one ear and out the other. I wish I could say that I wasn’t affected by the whole mess.But words hurt.
The situation caused me to question the intentions of the people around me.
It made me keenly aware of my ‘outsider’ status and it was a painful reminder of the sinful nature of people—even those that claim to follow Jesus.
When the drama struck, my people-pleasing nature shifted into second gear. I immediately wanted to do damage control and win over the heart of my accuser. I wanted to defend myself and make the person understand that what they had said was a lie straight from the deceitful mouth of Satan.
I wanted to do and say a lot of things…but I didn’t. Instead, God caused me to be silent.
Looking back, I can now see how much the attack affected me. In the past few months I have seen myself holding back, in more ways than one. I have been afraid of exposing my heart—afraid that my sincerity and genuine desire to love the people here and serve God will be misinterpreted and used to damage the ministry God is doing here. I have been afraid that Satan might seek to deceive others. I didn’t realize it, but I have been afraid of being rejected by the ones I am called to love.
I have been walking in fear of what Satan might do rather than walking in the TRUTH of Christ.
This morning God has really poured out his love on me. He has been revealing my faults and has extending his grace and forgiveness. There is still plenty more that He desires to do in and through me. He has made it very clear that His work is not finished. Likewise, the work He has put before me is also incomplete. He has not called me to be timid; He has called me to walk boldly with Him. He wants me to run this race with perseverance while he secures my steps and make straight the path before me.
This road that God has called me to travel is not easy but He promises that I will never have to walk it alone. As a follower of Jesus, I have become a new creation. But becoming ‘new’ is not a one-time event—it is a process. The woman I am today is not the woman I was last year. And I am thankful for all of the ways He continues to make me new. Walls are being torn down, bridges are being built…and I am becoming the woman He desires me to be.